Dear diary,
I feel like I've been living on a fast rollercoaster of emotions for the past couple of months. This first trimester hasn't been easy, and If I'm being honest, I've spent a lot of time worrying that my body would end up failing me again.
It's hard, you know? Especially when all I've ever experienced in pregnancy was loss... I've been trying to stay positive and let myself dream of this baby, but my heart is hesitant. I even didn't want to tell my parents that I was expecting because I feared having to potentially explain hard news if it were to ever come to that.
But this past week it was as if Holy Spirit spoke straight to my heart and calmed all of my fears. Like a light turned on.
Of course, I've always known that I have to trust God and have faith in His plans for me, but it hasn't always been easy practicing what I preach. Thankfully Yahweh is so good and He gave me strength when I couldn't muster it up myself.
I am thankful for His love.
-Asher